Words

Throughout much of my time, you will often see me writing, doodling or having some sort of pen in hand,

 to further pour out the beauty of color that is continuously expressed in my day to day life. 

......that entire night unfolded into a whirlwind. a messy whirlwind that left so much paint on the floor, on our hands and all over our clothes. a thick mess that has become a glob of so many separate colors and emotions that have now all smeared into an outpour on my hands. a glob of muddy emotions that were once vibrant, beautiful colors full of life, got overworked so much so that it is now hard to decipher the yuckiness i see when I look down at myself. although it is discouraging to see at times, the array and mixing of different colors, now leaving my hands the color of hurt and pain; having to stop and clean up my mess, wash my hands repeatedly and slowly put the caps back on all of the mediums that are scattered amongst the floor. Even when it may seem discouraging in that moment, as i come back after the repeated bathroom trips to wash the paint down the sink, i come back and am hit with a subtle yet proud feeling that continuously shows me why i must strive to spread the color even when my hands become muddy. 

to further understand why we weree sending much needed help to the planet in which you currently reside, many must first unlink the connection between the true physical perception in which they reside in their vessel 

and the connection between the internal, all, connection that intertwines and chains together all of life. 

it is most important to connect and unlink the connection between both of those residuals due to the key affliction and drastic different/shift. they both contain. fear and anger fight and enable the need for many to seek quick instant external satisfaction from their emotion and mental state rather than understanding the link between all 3. allowing all 3 to flow in harmony, listening to all with no capacity for one or the other, one option , one route in mind, one decision. made up in mind. when allowing all to be gone, to not exist, to simply be present, you are merely presented with the factor of either sides of a coin at play and it is either very infectious or ----------- no word soothing? enhancing. 

enhancing to be around in a day to day physical aspect of being in the flow of life with the capacity of only seeing one real attainable reason to be enthralled in the life. word.  

when pushing and shoving way through life to enjoy one sole aspect of life. it is merely losing touch with all in which it could be grasping in the present physical perceptive reality rather than waiting until. rushing to one singular scene that is never going to achieve full satisfaction rather than short term ^& when only seeing life in a aspect of shoving way through, it becomes so angry. so tied to one particular stream that is is disconnected and dense when operating in an external. connectedness aspect. it doesn't have desire to connect in anything because it is primarily in the mind of one goal to reach. if anything is compromising or reminding the being or vessel that it is in life without that one thing right now, it begins operating in a very misunderstood, fast paced way that drowns out all. 

not done. post for now- 4a